It's Coming....

Have you ever been afraid to say what is really on your mind? OR what about the times the words are there but the more you try to speak, the more overwhelmed you start to feel until all that is left is silence?

And then there are those times when you’re not even speaking but something deep inside you tells you that what you need to do next is share something important about yourself and it takes everything you have to say nothing at all.

I know I have been too afraid of the judgment and criticism that might come my way if I were to speak up. But, the mastermind I am part of has shown me that what I have to share is important, that it’s time for me to be brave, it is time for me to share my story because it might just save a life!

I heard those words “It’s cancer” in 2008. What followed was a journey, one in which I learned so much about myself. I also learned that there are things that in hindsight I wish I had done. I NEEDED but didn’t do it during my journey. From this experience dealing with breast cancer through the different seasons of the journey and how it has affected me emotionally during each season – From diagnosis to today, remission, survival, guilt…the journey has grown into an offering to help others. It is called the season of cancer.

Do you know someone who has been diagnosed with cancer?

Seasons of Cancer is a course that guides someone through the journey of a cancer diagnosis by learning the importance of how to document the journey and the healing from it, ways of processing emotions through journaling and art, and how meditation can soothe moments. It provides tools for managing stress, anxiety, fear, and uncertainty. Creating an online community where people can share their stories and connect with others on this difficult journey.

I want to help those living with cancer feel empowered in their own healing process. You are not alone on this road! Join us today as we walk together towards wellness, towards Thriving!

And Fall began…

Sometimes life deals us a hand that we do not want, one that places on a journey we are unsure of where it is going or why we are there. One of those hands was shuffled to me in. 2008 and the journey I have found myself on has been a series of discoveries and self-revelations. Thirteen years ago, my life was shaken to its core. I heard the words from a Doctor that no one wants to hear, ever. â€œIt is Cancerâ€ â€¦. I am not really sure what he said after that, as the room went dark in my head, those were the only words that kept replaying in my mind, over and over again.

When my latest journey began I was a 40 something-year-old mother of 4, firefighter, military spouse, and internationally competitive athlete. To say my life was much different then, then now would be sort of a huge understatement. Going from saving lives, running into burning buildings, and traveling the world to lift weights competitively to being a visual artist and cancer thriver, and a guide for cancer patients through their journey of surviving to thriving. It has been a huge change, mostly for the better, although I will admit to missing the burning building part.

The journey from survival mode to thriving mode is a most interesting one. For me, it has involved a lot of self-forgiveness, body acceptance, and a reinventing of who I am or want to be, how I want to show up in the world. Helping others is just part of who I am, not something I am willing, nor do I want to change about myself. But loving who I am, that has taken some time and work. Much of that work has come through my art, in many different mediums: photography, scannography, mixed media, art journaling, painting, and even some drawing.

The one thing in my journey that I have regretted not having is a record of me. I have a visual record of how I felt during parts of the journey, but no record of how I was physical. No images capturing the beauty in the darkness of the journey. Nothing I can look back on now and see just how far I have traveled. When walking through the journey, it is one of the last things you consider. I often thought about how I did not want to remember any of that period in my life, not realizing then just how important that time frame would become in my journey forward. Not realizing how possible it is to become stuck in the cycle if you do not process everything so you can move forward.

Now my journey is to teach women, like you, to use the creative process to become more mindful and self-aware, so you can navigate the challenges of cancer and treatments, and design the life that you want. Along with teaching skills, I also want to capture the memories, beauty, and strength of these thriving warriors. Using all of my skills and knowledge to steer a ship of those making a journey with cancer to a place beyond just survival, but a place where Thriving is the goal!

It’s Coming

It's Coming....

The Journey to Thriving

And Fall began…